Rules of the legendary Whitney Houston's life

• The rules of life of the legendary Whitney Houston

I'm the best friend and the worst enemy of itself.

As a child I wanted to become a teacher. I love children, so I wanted to work with them. Then I wanted to become a veterinarian. But by the age of 10-11 - when I opened my mouth and said, "Oh, my God, what is it?" - I realized that teaching and veterinary wait.

I did not have time to grow up, did not have time to hang out. In my 20 years I have even with anyone not met. This was hard. I grew older, and as time went backwards. I thought, okay, now I'm just going to hang out. It was the rebel in me, you know?

You know what I feel? I feel old. I have been working with for 11 years. I performed in nightclubs, I was a model, all this garbage. I just do not want to sicken. This is not as good as it used to when I started. I love what I do, and I am pleased to know that others like it too. But the fun is gone.

I'm strong. You have to be strong to survive so long in show business.

I was scared to death role in "The Bodyguard." This is Kevin Costner, you know? I asked, "Why me?" He answered: "Because you're the only one who can sing."

It took me two years to decide. Too long for Kevin, probably. I think it's even on his nerves. One day he called me and said, "Look, you're going to do a movie with me or not," I told him about their fears: "I'm afraid. I do not want to take a step and fall. " And he replied, "I promise I will not let you fall. I will help you". And it helped. I know that I Will Always Love You was gorgeous. I had to give everything to the full in this song. But I had no idea that she was so well and quickly sell.

My mother was my first performer. She sang to us all the time - at home, in the church. She always said, "If you do not feel the music, do not even try, because it is a waste of time." I watched my mother sing - usually it was in the church - and felt so much spiritual power, a feeling as if an electric charge passes through you.

I really believe that the mother's voice is better than mine, because she is a teacher, and I am a pupil. It has a larger range, her voice more power than has ever been in my.

Some go to me on the ears, but my mother would not lie to me, she will tell the truth. She is honest with me.

One day I went to his Mercedes to his home in East Orange, New Jersey, to see his mother. I parked near the house, and when I returned, my car was all smeared with mayonnaise, mustard, and other crap. That's all changed. I succeeded, and someone does not like it.

The more popular you get, the weirder you want to see. Last year, I read about himself and thought: "Who are they, dammit?"

When you meet someone, you have to deal with it properly. Image - the only part of man that is not the whole picture. I do not always go in sequined dress. I am nobody's angel. I can go down and get dirty. I can be rough.

In some moments I start to think that things go wrong. And then I look at my little girl (daughter Bobbi Kristina Houston -. Esquire) and I realize that she does not need anything from me, I need it - such as it is. And that's what makes me really want to live. The idea that I am not, and someone else will teach her some things in life for me is unbearable. I would not be with someone who does not respect my opinion. No one can make me do something I do not want to. You do not make me sing a song that I did not want to sing.

I am one of those people who are no longer there, if they turned out to be a nervous day or a hard week. Some people eat, I eat.

You could never imagine Bobby Brown (musician, ex-husband of singer -. Esquire) and Whitney Houston together. Who could? Love is where you find it. And I found it there, and he found it in me.

He was my drug. I did not do anything without him. I do not take drugs without him. It's always been me and him - together. We were partners, and he was my drug.

I do not like to think that I am dependent. I like to think that I have a bad habit, which can cope with.

I'm not self-destructive personality. I'm not one of those who wants to die. I am a person who has a life, and he wants to live.

I know that I am a child of God and that he loves me.